Have you ever heard a song at an exact moment in your life and had it resonate so deeply with you that you just felt like it was written right for you at that very moment?

That was me, listening to Seventeen’s song “F*ck My Life” today.

I’ve spent the past week up and down emotionally, and today in particular I am very much in my feelings.  While I was handling some blog work earlier, I was listening to a Seventeen playlist, and this song came on. I’d watched this video the day it dropped, and I remember liking the odd “Truman Show”-esque vibes of it, and that the lyrics were really meaningful…but it didn’t really hit until today, when I was just in an emotional state for it to REALLY hit me right in the heart.

This fucking world

In this fucking world, I’m the only stupid
I lost my way, I lost my aim
Dumbest person alive
Let’s just forget all of this, let’s just laugh through all of this
Because this comfort is meaningless

On my way back home I get choked up
Keep feeling like crying, woah-oh-oh, oh
I just wanna find myself before I disappear completely
When I was young and watched cartoons
I wondered why I couldn’t be
The main character like I would see
My heart’s all too blackened
Isn’t there anyone who could trade their heart with mine just for a day?

In this fucking world, I’m the only stupid
I lost my way, I lost my aim
Dumbest person alivе
From now on I’ll fight for my life
For my own good, fight for my life
We’rе so used to feeling numb in this life
Now I just wanna find myself

I’m getting so tired dreaming by myself
I’m so sick of it all now, just wanna give up
Don’t wanna be an embarrassment tomorrow for the me I knew yesterday
Because this commitment is meaningless

I look so dumb, it’s almost ridiculous
Keep feeling like crying, woah-oh-oh, oh
I’m getting so numb to this life that it feels like I’m shrinking away
I got a secret I can’t tell and it’s turning to tears again
I can’t tell a soul, I’m too ashamed for that
Isn’t there anyone who could trade their heart with mine just for a day?

In this fucking world, I’m the only stupid
I lost my way, I lost my aim
Dumbest person alive
From now on I’ll fight for my life
For my own good, fight for my life
We’re so used to feeling numb in this life
Now I just wanna find myself

We’re so used to feeling numb in this life
Now I just wanna find myself

Holy SHIT. Haven’t we all felt like this at some point in our lives, where we just feel so dumb and numb, feeling like you don’t fit into the world, but also wanting to be part of it, but afraid to reach out and tell someone, ANYONE, that you’re floundering?

As sad as the main concept behind the song is…there’s still a call to fight for your life. There’s still a reminder that we all have the capability to fight and make a stand, and not let the waves of life, stress, fears, anxiety drag you to the depths. You can still fight, you can still swim. There’s still joy and happiness to be had, and we all deserve it. It’s going to be a battle, but you can come out of the other side.

A few dear friends have recently got me into Seventeen (thanks Eve, Jake, and Bee!), and I have been slowly listening to more of their stuff and picking out my favorites.  I’ve decided Seventeen will be the first group that I’ll start going through their discography for the blog, so keep an eye out for more posts with my thoughts on their albums.